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with your beauty, you are better than the sun ; with your morals you are more sublime than musk ; with your modesty you are nobler than the full moon ; with your compassion you are more beneficial than rain..so, preserve your beauty with FAITH, your tranquility with CONTENTMENT, your chastity with HIJAB

jika terpaksa membenci

Jika terpaksa membenci

jangan ketara

sembunyikan bersama sabarmu

biarkan dia berkata-kata

relakan dia lakukan segala

pendam rasamu

rendam katamu.

Jika terpaksa membenci

benci seadanya

jangan dirinya

tetapi kelakuannya

jangan keterlaluan

jangan berlebihan

diam… dan cuba maniskan wajah.

Jika terpaksa membenci

jangan sampai dapat dibaca

sembunyikan segala di sudut hatimu

namun, ingat jangan beri hatimu kepadanya !

jika terpaksa membenci..

( alangkah baik jika kalimah itu tiada.. )

rindu padaMu

ya Allah..
betapa rindunya untuk hati kembali 100% mengingatiMu,
betapa rindunya utk merasai getran jiwa dan deraian air mata
kerna takutkan dosa-dosa lampau
betapa rindunya utk sujud dalam penuh kekhusyukan
betapa rindunya untuk merasai  sepenuhnya
erti sebagai hamba yang hina...

that's me..

Sometimes when I get upset, something inside of me shuts down. I feel like I should be crying or screaming or something but I don't because I'm turned off. I go silent and don't talk very much, just looking at people. Thinking so much that I could drive myself crazy. It's the kind of upset that confuses me and makes me want to curl up and sleep it off. I stay fixed like this until the hurt runs away. Sometimes it feels like it's never going to go...

ya Rabb...help me..amiin..

ya Allah..i know you're testing me.. :)

Ya Allah, kuatkanlah hambamu ini dalam menghadapi segala dugaan dan cubaan darimu :’) Tabahkanlah hatiku, Ya Allah :’) Aminnn ~(( *Sabar. Sikit je ni T.T ))

then..someone text me..he said “He breaks you, to build you. Deprives you, to give you. This pain in your heart was created to make you yearn less for this life, and to yearn more for Jannah. Allahu Akbar...”

till then..pen off..

denganNYA

kenapa senyap ?

kenapa diam ?

kenapa tak kongsi ?

kenapa tak cerita ?

entah

tak semua benda boleh dikongsi.

tak semua benda boleh diluah

boleh dicerita

ada perkara perlu dihadapi dan ditelan sendiri

diluah takut membuka aib

dicerita takut dijaja kelak

dengan manusia, lidah kelu

walau hati sangat ingin berbicara

tiada kata mampu menzahir segala rasa

denganNYA,

bibir kaku, tiada kata mampu terucap.

yakin, DIA sudah sangat tahu.

hati sebak, dada terasa berat.

yakin, DIA sudah sangat mengerti.

hanya doa terzahir,

” Ya Allah, berilah kekuatan, untukku menghadapi semua ini"